When Its Deep We Get Tossed Head Over Heals, But Its Not Forever!

The loss of my brother will always take my breath away - that's true for all who miss Joel.  As my heart constricts and my breath leaves, and I feel the deep ache in my chest and throat - even then,  I feel God again.  People said I would, but the despair made it impossible to imagine.  I also know that every day, season, event will bring new filters...


I'm sure that in life, we will always be aware of someone suffering.  The ones who can get closest to our heart are those who have suffered in the same way.  In time our inward suffering calls us to outward action.

A lot is going on in the world.  Where can God use your pain?  If not yet, some day He will, if you offer it up to Him.  Take your time...I'm taking mine.  But when you're His child, He is close, whether you sense it or not. 

God. Is. My. Anchor.


I have hope and a taste of His presence again.  Psalm 34 says, "Taste and see that the Lord is good."  Many have prayed for our family in our grief.  God calls us to pray for one another.  Thank you does not even begin to express my gratitude.  

 Prayer lifts our gaze, lets us confess, praise, intercede, offer thanks.  There is a listening part of prayer too.  Slowing down allows us to hear His response of unconditional love.  
We have a good good Father.I am seeing, and want to see more of
 "the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living." Psalm 27:13

I am trusting in the truth that we drink from the living waters of hope.


"Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said, ‘Out of his heart will flow rivers of living water.’” John 7:38 and "I will make rivers flow on barren heights, and springs within the valleys. I will turn the desert into pools of water, and the parched ground into springs." Isaiah 41:18  and Isaiah 43:19


"Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God." – 2 Corinthians 1:3-4
I don't know what God has planned.  But I know that I don't want this pain to be in vain.  My desire is to see God not only continue healing my family and me, but that He would grace us to be living vessels of His love to the hurting.  May the following verses bring you hope today, in what ever you are facing.  And know this, the bulbs we plant down deep in the cold hard winter soil create the most beautiful blooms come spring.  Hold on dear one.



Psalm 42:6-8: 

"O my God, my soul is in despair within me; Therefore I remember You from the land of the Jordan And the peaks of Hermon, from Mount Mizar. 7Deep calls to deep at the sound of Your waterfalls; All Your breakers and Your waves have rolled over me. 8The LORD will command His lovingkindness in the daytime; And His song will be with me in the night, A prayer to the God of my life.…"



Psalm 31
“In you, O Lord, do I take refuge; let me never be put to shame; in your righteousness deliver me! Incline your ear to me; rescue me speedily! Be a rock of refuge for me, a strong fortress to save me! For you are my rock and my fortress; and for your name's sake you lead me and guide me;...

I will rejoice and be glad in your steadfast love, because you have seen my affliction; you have known the distress of my soul, and you have not delivered me into the hand of the enemy; you have set my feet in a broad place. Be gracious to me, O Lord, for I am in distress; my eye is wasted from grief; my soul and my body also. For my life is spent with sorrow, and my years with sighing; my strength fails because of my iniquity, and my bones waste away.

But I trust in you, O Lord; I say, "You are my God."

Make your face shine on your servant; save me in your steadfast love!

Oh, how abundant is your goodness, which you have stored up for those who fear you and worked for those who take refuge in you, in the sight of the children of mankind!

I had said in my alarm, "I am cut off from your sight." But you heard the voice of my pleas for mercy when I cried to you for help. Love the Lord, all you his saints! The Lord preserves the faithful but abundantly repays the one who acts in pride. Be strong, and let your heart take courage, all you who wait for the Lord!”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭31:1-3, 5, 7-10, 14, 16, 19, 22-24‬ ‭ESV‬‬ 


This following songs soothes me with the Scripture:

Til The End of Time by Cody Carnes and Kari Jobe
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sFbtU1UM9T4




"Deep calls to deep at the sound of Your waterfalls; All Your breakers and Your waves have rolled over me. 8The LORD will command His lovingkindness in the daytime; And His song will be with me in the night, A prayer to the God of my life."
Psalm 42:7-8

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