Control Freak Alert! Surrender Time! A 2 minute read!

I have a million things to do today, I need to catch up on everything!  And at the same time, I need to surrender and not control.  Catching up like a “mad woman” is a sign of  a “control freak” day for me.

Guess what’s way more beautiful than control of duties?  Surrender to time with God, and to relationship with others!  I had the most beautiful time this morning with one of my precious friends who is moving off to college soon.  What could be more beautiful than that Divine appointment?  Nothing!  I was so blessed, thank you Lord!

We all have situations in life that are beyond our control.  Control has been a big thing for me.  If I can control my surroundings, I think I will be better off.  But I have learned, and continue to learn over the years to surrender my control to HIM.  This pile you see, will not control me today, by His grace!

 

I’ve described this before, but Fibromyalgia is a condition where your nerve endings fire “pain” and there really isn’t an actual cause for pain.   Sometimes it is excruciating, and sometimes you forget you have it.  I have no control over this!  There are other areas that are connected to this condition.  I can work with it with diet and rest and medication, but in the end, I do not control it.

For years I have battled my physical strength in my brain, sometimes attaching my worth to God, by how I feel physically.  Thinking that if I were “resting” in Him the way I “should,” that I would feel better.  But I’ve learned that as our Pastor says this to his kids, “I love you because you are mine,” so it is with God.  God love us.  It’s not based on anything but His grace and mercy for His glory.  Isaiah 43:1 “Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine.”

In one sermon our Pastor mentioned the “Continental Divide.” He explained that every drop of water to the east of the Continental Divide falls to the east, and every drop to the west, falls to the west. 

Sometimes life is like that.  I can walk a fine line with my health sometimes.  One day it falls to the right and sometimes to the left.  Today, my body wants to rest and yet I have a lot to do.  Pushing through fatigue to clean, pay bills, or exercise does not make me better in God’s eyes.  It is humbling to let Him have control.  There are days though when that doesn’t happen.  Days when I hold on and struggle with my thoughts.  Am I still in favor with God?  Yes!  His love is unconditional!

I am learning about peace more and more.  There is a verse that draws a line like the “Continental Divide” for me.  “For He Himself is my peace.” Ephesians 2:14  I see that I can not make myself at peace by measuring my peace!  I have to only look to HIM, even when anxiety rises, or pain rises, or fear rises.  Putting on Him, His righteousness, that is peace. “The fruit of righteousness will be peace; the effect of righteousness will be quietness and confidence forever.” Is 32:17  The fruit (peace) will come, but based on nothing but HIM.  I must not “over think it!”

I must be willing to feel the unrest of transitions, or the days of fatigue  without “over thinking” on them!  He may allow the unrest, or the fatigue for a time…that does not determine my worth to HIM.  OR ACTUALLY IT DOES DETERMINE MY WORTH!  It is His love that takes care of me in those moments.  “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28

So when I look at things and begin to assess my worth based on the “Continental Divide” of my circumstances, I am truly a drop of water being blown by the wind.  But, if I see that drop of water fall to one side or the other and still TRUST in HIM, I will be doing what Proverbs 3:5-6 says: “trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge HIM and HE will direct your path.” 

The path across the USA is not a straight path, and neither is the path of life.  He leads us through deserts sometimes and mountain tops sometimes.  All the while, HE loves us as our Father. “How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are!”  1 John 3:1

I really feel fine today!  But I have had to tweak a few things lately to feel good with all the travel and changes that seem to keep coming.  It just felt like the time to write this out again!  My prayer is that we don’t miss out on what God has for us by being too driven by our schedule.  Often God says “time out” for a reason, and it’s always good because God is good!

I love Chris Tomlin’s Waterfall song!  It talks about if the river goes to the right we go to the right, and if it goes to the left, we go to the left…sweet surrender!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qga1wBBajcA

Comments

  1. talithaAugust 19, 2014 at 4:40 PM

    Thanks for the reminder, Julie! I needed to hear that. As always, your writing blesses me.

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  2. julie_asmusDecember 3, 2018 at 6:51 AM

    Love you 💕

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